Wednesday, January 18, 2012


Today is bringing back a lot of strong memories for me.  In two days my little Maddie will turn one, but it was on this day last year (a Wednesday of this week) that I realized that in just a few short hours we would have a little baby with us.

This time last year I was probably doing pretty routine things - cleaning up, trying to think of something to make for dinner, checking my email - except I was pretty sure I was having contractions.  Nothing too painful - just enough to make me wonder.  If today was today last year, I'd be having a baby in the morning.

When I found out I was pregnant four weeks after getting married I felt so overwhelmed and unprepared.  I had always wanted to be a mom more than anything but didn't expect that it would happen that soon.  Josh was amazing through everything, and despite my fears at times, he always reassured me that this was the right thing for us and helped me realize that things would work out.

I feel pretty safe speaking for both of us when I say that this past year has been the best year of our lives. We've had our ups and downs, but couldn't imagine ourselves any happier.  We have learned so so much and are so in love with our little girl, and even more in love with each other.  Sometimes I feel like I need to pinch myself - this little thing is real - and she's ours!  She is so sweet and so fun and makes our lives so much more complete.

Today we had the opportunity to celebrate Maddie's birthday a few days early by having lunch with Elder Holland.  It's something that she won't be able to remember herself, but I hope that we can help her to.  What a lucky little girl, and what an amazing opportunity.

 I am feeling blessed today in so many ways.  Maddie, we love you more than words could ever say!

No pictures with Elder Holland today, but we did manage one in the yellow lights outside the 
Church Administration Building entrance.


Alie said...

I love this, Jess! And her bow is adorable. :)

Jill said...

This will come as no shock to you, but after reading what you wrote...I'M IN TEARS!! That was the sweetest thing to read! I still can't believe Heavenly Father sent this perfect angel to you...and in sending her to you, sent her to us too!! WE LOVE YOU THREE!!!